I Remember

I remember harsh winters but they never froze me

I remember hot summers but they never burned me

I remember less means but I never starved

I remember less light but never stark darkness

I remember the moonlight night cloud breeze

I remember not knowing where I was exactly

I remember thinking I had to solve everything

I remember being the alien

I remember being the loner

the stranger

I remember hearing someone had a pervading sense of peace

I remember thinking that even shortfall of this endeavor would be an elevation

I remember listening and feeling for the first time in a long time

I remember trusting the experience of others and feeling their emotional victories

I remember deciding that anything good anyone ever did would only inspire me and teach me

I remember daring to believe that I could reach the same places anyone else could

I remember thinking that was another goal worth learning toward

I remember learning that I would have to constantly change

Change what I was willing to think of myself

Change what I was willing to think of others

Change what I was willing to do

and not to do

Change what I was willing to value

Change what I was able to love

Change how I was willing to sit with and feel

Change what I am able to realize about what I am.